So last night we went out with 2 other couples. Was a last minute thing.

Where we live there are a lot of Jewish young couples and they all know each other.

The restaurant that was picked was full of these couples and it was basically one big party.

Our table had 3 couples:

An extremely wealthy, smart, self made woman with her husband (who was actually related to me).

A horny jeweler married to a girl 10 years younger. His wealth level is not completely known but he is definitely doing ok with a $180k watch at his wrist.

And husband and I.

We were probably the least “wealthy” for not saying the in other words.

The wives were wearing both very expensive jewelry, had perfectly manicured hands.

I was wearing my Zanetti shoes which used to impress people, lol, not in this group of people.

I have some…

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I say to you I’m tired. And I am. I’m tired of life. I’m tired of my head. I’m tired of everything I cannot change. I’m tired of fighting.

I say I’m tired. And I am. But I’m hiding behind it. I’m not sure what I feel. I don’t have the capacity to know or understand my feelings so I’m tired will have to do as I’m too tired to work it out.

I’m tired. I’m exhausted. My body and mind don’t want to work. My head is thumping. My limbs are aching. Sleep doesn’t help. I want to be in bed. I want to give up. I want to hide away.

I’m tired. Of being a burden. Of being a failure. Of being a no good human being. Of being the worst of everything…

“Trust starts with truth, and ends with truth.”

1. If you lie and choose to break your partner’s trust, he or she may never fully trust you again. The damage will depend on how major the lie is … But often the effects will be serious and long-lasting …

For how can you determine if they’re lying in the future? You were hood-winked in the past so it could happen once again.

2. Once trust has been broken, things can never be the same. There will always be a tiny hairline crack in the mirror. You can’t reverse the damage, or eradicate all traces. The facts are still the facts, and the memories remain.

3. Betrayal stops a person from equating trust and love. Now, trust has to be earned, and it must be verified. A person has to prove they are worthy of your love. Saying “