My pity party was short and sour.

I must suck it up and put on my big girl pants.

Rose is coming home tomorrow.

I must hide the elephant(fear) from her and be brave.

She is such a champ. I cannot let her see her mama being a wimp.

We have been here many times before.

I know my role quite well. Fake it ’til you make it.

Wish me luck.

Mama

Last time i wrote a post i was sitting in my hotel room thinking about the new season and the seizure i had in pre season. i decided to share that all and explain how i recovered. 24 hours after writing that post i was involved in a freak accident 30 minutes into the game and was forced off with a very painful injury. A player fell on my knee and hyper extended which forced me to leave the game early. A few days later after MRI Scan i find out it’s a grade 3 tear to my MCL. This is a major setback once again for me but mentally with having seizures i’m used to setbacks. 8 weeks on and being in a brace i feel having epilepsy has allowed me to mentally deal with a major injury like this, and put me in good stead for my return…

I’m afraid I’ll provide spoilers if I go into much detail, so I’m just going to say, watch this Netflix series. It’s seven episodes of pure moody, beautiful suspense.

Dark? Yes.

Gory? In places.

Philosophical? Absolutely.

I’ve almost said too much. I’m going to shut up now.

Peace, people!

“It is what it is, and you feel what you feel.”

The starting place for healing from a trauma in your life is taking that courageous, and very shaky, step of facing the truth of what happened to you.

That means allowing all the feelings to rise up to the surface, and experiencing the pain all over again.

But what do you do after taking that brave step – because you know, for a fact, that it’s going to feel awful?

In summary:

1. Give yourself time – take all the time you need – to deal with what comes up, and to mourn a million losses.

2. Allow the healing process to follow its own course. You can’t force the pace, or decide what it will look like.

3. Be patient with yourself, and especially during dark days. You don’t know how you will feel; you don’t…

When You Believe They are born of earth, flame and bone, long since forgotten and sleeping alone. They weren’t the last to walk these paths, through other worlds, they’ve since passed. Scrambling through the cauldrons of hell, back to the place they are known to dwell. They’re messengers of balance and magic, how we’ve forgotten them is utterly tragic. Adored by the Welsh, their omens of good, seers of great wisdom, wherein they stood. Stand out magnificent, mammoth and mythic, in fighting for what is right, they are terrific. Their unquenchable flames of compassion, in virtues of empathy, truth and passion. It was a long time coming and they knew, that hidden in yourself is a dragon, or two. They light the sky with inferno of flames, the legends of Dragons will always remain. With fearless hearts, wisdom and charm, when…