“Sometimes you just have to stay silent because words can’t express what you’re going through.

And that’s OK.”

There are times when words are inadequate.

How do you sum up what you’re going through?

There are so many losses. The grief extends so far.

The pain is so profound. And it goes on for so long.

There are unexpected triggers. There are ripples everywhere.

It’s unsightly, and it’s messy.

There is no way to describe it.

And there’s no way you can fit it into some tidy box.

So there’s no point even trying. It’s a force unto itself.

You just have to push on through it.

Keep on going. Step by step.

It is too hard to explain things.

Words are useless anyway!

I would like to add two points to this topic. The first is that we later discovered that red dye #40 was a trigger for Rose’s seizures. We looked back at all the times we tried to prevent febrile seizures by using red, orange, purple and pink NSAIDs(Non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs).

There was no way we could backtrack in our records to see if there was a relationship here. There was however, a way to check when red antibiotics were used to see if febrile seizures resulted. I was relieved to find no correlation between the red dye in her liquid antibiotics and the occurrence of febrile seizures. We hope that this was also true of her colorful over-the-counter treatments for fevers.

My second point is that I eventually did research into febrile seizures and read that repeated febrile seizures should be treated like epilepsy. I drove a note, complete with…

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